-For change!-

I swear! By next week, my lifestyle for my holidays, will be altered! Maybe not be as simple as going to some alteration shop, asking to alter the length of sleeve or pants and then just pay for it.

I dont care!! I need to change. Especially if i really want to keep you..

It is a personal choice to change. I feel i need to change, and i will use you as a source of motivation. I cant stand to lose someone like you, even more so when i am already swept away by that tidal-love wave. I really want to be with you,.. will it come true? Will that dream, fantasy eventually come? I think it will all be based on next week, monday 21.09.09. (omg, is it a public holiday?) DAMN. Im already losing the drive to do so. Wtfreak. All that adrenaline for nothing.

Yesterday's webcam session was a great way to end the day. I know it was the same for you. Your smile never seem mundane,.. I wish i was there. When will i be!!? I feel as though time is running out. You asked me out this saturday, tomorrow 19.09.09. I dont want to spoil the "fun". Neither do i want to fall in too deep, even when i know it is a fact that i want to.

Never Mind! I will be patient, and hope you will. I dont want to make me look like an easy prey.. :P

[b] I want you badly