Ahhh, graduation ceremony!

Hours before i have to wake up dead early, here i am, using the laptop, with a blanket over my screen, trying to shield any visible light emitting from the screen just like the scene in one of the "Harry Potter" movies. 

Everyone right now is probably asleep. I regretted sleeping earlier on, cos now i have a hard time sleeping.. So wide awake la. And so restless, feel like doing my work, but afraid mom and sis will be awaken by the blinding light. Sigh, dont know what to do. 

I planned to sleep at 3 am though, cos i know if i hadn't sleep, ill feel extremely sleepy the next morning.. 

Long story short. I am nervous about attending the ceremony.. Can u imagine me wearing a formal attire? Jeeez. Ill snap some photos of me wearing nice looking clothes, which i borrowed from my cousin, cos i NEVER and DONT own any formal clothes.. 

Pants Tight like no body's business. Right up to my PP. Then my bulging blubber . . . . . . sigh, the horrendous sight.. 

Bad news? YEs there is.. My mom wanted me to pass this letter informing my form teacher that i would be absent on Thursday 10 July 2008. However, stupid brain keeps forgetting to remind my body to do so.. So i lied to my mom saying, " yea, i passed it to my teacher liao, then she say okay . . . "  (see the power of lying yet?) haha. 

And i feel terribly guilty for doing so.. Cos she told me to do so on tuesday, which i also forgotten.. Then it happened again. So silly. 

Believe or not, today i slept throughout the listening comprehension practice paper.. Maybe not all, but half. Face pressed down on my paper, i slowly went to la-la land. 

Then HW nudge me.. Scare me seh, thought principal was outside class.. By the time he woke me up, the radio has already stopped playing, and the chinese teacher was going through the answers. Which i only 1 out of 5 questions correct, plus 5 question that i didnt do.. 

So double the guilt today. 

Totally miserable today. Why must life be so treacherous? BTYX kept appearing out of no where. Then during morning assembly, i was "forced" to sit infront of BTYX, cos there wasn't space for me when i arrived.. So poor thing.. HAHA.. 

I sat so still for the half an hour we were there. Got up feeling numbness in both my legs, and back for sitting hunched-back for so long.. the horrible things i have to endure when he is around.. Shit him.. ( but i adore him )

Then it was maths period. Got back math test paper. Ok not bad, had 19/20  (A1) haha, rub it in!

Then another bad news came after 2 periods of maths and double periods of PE, where the STUPID teacher didn't come, so we ended up sitting in class for a whole hour doing NOTHING.. 

Then it was chemistry after. Got back test? yes. 

Pass? yes

A1? NO!!!!!!!!!

A2? NOOOO!!!!!

okok, B4?  *yea* *sobs*

Sickening results for being so complacent and over confident! 

Well, i wasn't complacent hor! I did study, but i left out important words in my answers, hence the low STUPID marks.. Sian.

Down in the dumps i tell u. 

Total guilt?? 3 in total.

Unbelievable day i had. 

Then got home around 5:30 PM, and before i know it. I was butt naked using the com.. ( ok, i was wrapped in a towel, k! )

Used the internet for a while before heading to the showers. Then came both my mom and sis from the salon? ( salon = place where people cut hair????? )

****sis woke up while i was using the com**** hahaha

Then had no choice but to sleep then. So here i am, skipping school- for good reason-. And just now, few minutes ago, HW called.. Phew thought it was my form teacher calling me.. Thankgod.

Anyway, i have forgotten what i wanted to mention about yesterday. So ill Just stop here! 

So long!!

Brendon =D loves h(im)

Ahhh, graduation ceremony for my sis.

Ahh, the sound of relieve-ness, makes one relieved!

Ok, what a heading, i know.

Not as though U never did it before!

HAHA

My Chinese O level Oral ended, but not with a smile on my face that spread across my serious face.

And without fail, once i arrived back home sweet home, and all alone, i yell/jumped/squeal/screeched/roared with joy.

"ITS OVER!!" 

"I DONT NEED TO TOUCH CHINESE EVER AGAIN!"

YES!

Its the truth. 

Yay, i am not worried, cos i could read the passage alright. =D 

Hell Yea.

Nodding my head to the beats of the music stored im my phone, i was so GLAD to Finally read ENGLISH words. ARGH. 

Called Jo and informed her about how it was, and soon, i was on my HANDPHONE for 13 minutes! WTH.. haha.. Dont know if my contract covers that time.. LOL

Yes. Its over.. WEEEEEEEEE!

Im actually laughing.. haha.. 

.NEXT.

Before the week or two before my oral exam, i learnt a term where it describes the guy's PP.

XD

haha.. Im not going to tell.. Cos its a secret.. Dont want to spoil those innocent minds reading my blog. 

I cant seem to think of what i wanted to say/type.. 

Maybe later.. 

Tata. tutu.. Bye!

( my colour theme sucks.. )

Long time no see my blog... miss ya

Miss ya blog! How've u been..  ( listening to sara bareilles-bottle it up )

Anyway, u see dear blog, i haven't been in the mood to blog. Hope u understand Dearest blog!

Heh.

Hmm, many things happened over the month or so. Met new friends Via the Yahoo! answers. Hmm, cool people, but now also like never chat liao.. Sigh.

Then, just recently, i also sort of met a singaporean on Yahoo! answer, but i dont even know his name for goodness sake sia! 

Then, ask him, then he doesn't want to share, so F**K de.

Oh well, guess it's a "secret" like what u said. 

See, he's a closet G*Y, so he like so private about his personal details.

Even his E mails address was a fake one, specially made for friends that he found online. LOL

And so, i have no choice but, to just play along. 

But somehow, he reminded me of someone. (xytb), cos there was once, where i said 

"Hey, there!

Then the (xytb-type of reply) "Yes?"

I was, AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!. No way. but after chatting with him after sometime, the more he didnt sound like xytb. HAHAH.. 

But i think it is him? or im i damn wrong?!?

So, june holiday break ended like that! Dont even know what i did during holidays. LOL

( chatting with the mysterious person on MSN) F**king asshole... SIAN like hell. 

Dont even feel like having the conversation.. Like shit.. 

Anyway. i am not in the mood to blog anymore.. Freakz of nature some people.. 

Anyway, be patient. Ill update  more in a couple of days.. Need to go practice chinese oral!

Tomorrow my Chinese O levels oral.. Wish me luck.. =D

LOVEz.. bye

Long time no see my blog... miss ya

OMFG. Never have i ever felt so DEMORALIZED!!

Ok, i was just downstairs, and was making my way to this "Yong Tau Fu" restaurant, and i kept hearing someone calling my name. 

Whipped my head around, only to see my aunt's husband! 

I was like " OMG, what does he wants?"

Then he questioned me what i was doing downstairs. WTF.

I mean, what else. Then he added, you playing a fool downstairs ah?

HUH? Me playing a fool. Please lor..

Then thinking he was chinese, i spoke in chinese too. 

Then he asked me about where im going, not buying for my sister food? (she's in thailand), then came the reply that anyone of us in NA would feel insulted!

Ok, before that i said "my sis, graduate already from NUS, and is now in Thailand"

Then he asked what I was doing.

Then i said taking my O levels this year.

Then he said " express? normal?

"normal" i replying in guilt. ( cos all my cousins are FUCKING smart!!!!! )

Then he said in chinese! """ Why u so stupid?""" 

WHAT!! 

STUPID? STUPID for making for this far, just because i have an extra year compared to the Express students?? 

Does it really mean we are STUPID if we belong in the normal academic Or the normal technical?

I was in total shock, dismay and disbelief that something would ever come out of his mouth that was so demoralizing. 

At least a sign of encourage would boost one's confidence, wont it? 

Then rather compared to a disappointing remark that may affect one's results. 

I am stunned by it. And i hope, never would such insensitive judgement be said . . . 

I really hope that these people know that ITS not the end of the world if IM in NA or NT.. 

Be it a retard.. It still doesnt give the green light to insult someone mentally.. 

Oh well, why retain hatred? 

:) smiles..

OMFG. Never have i ever felt so DEMORALIZED!!

Jumpstyle!

Let me just start by saying this.

Ever since i watched "The Gold inferno" on "So You Think You Can Dance".

A dancer DANCING, made me looked twice. 

I was amazed with the dance moves!!

WOW

Its called "JumpStyle" originated ( Damn, i cant find where it was from )

Anyway, it caught my eye, and pretty fun to look.

Music wise, Pretty hip.

Sounds Techno.

I now got engrossed that i actually feel like learning it.. LOL

Dont laugh.

Hmm, its pretty easy, but i haven't tried it out yet.. 

Sure to sweat like mad.

This Dance is no longer as popular, maybe cause there isn't that people taking interest.

Oh well. Every trend may experience a sudden drip in population. 

YAY. I finally got 1 Best Answer on Yahoo's Answer.. Feels great. I never actually thought i could even get nominated. LOL

But the question posted had little answers. So i guess i was lucky.. HAHA..

Overall, i have been able to concentrate on my work, ever since my sis went over to Thailand

Strange.

Maybe, because i have the whole room to myself.. But its lonely to be the only one sleeping inside.

Hope to from her more.. HEH, just received an E mail from my sis today or yesterday. 

Dont know when la, i dont checking mails everyday.

Ok, i "pang seh" ( correct spelling? ) sak two days.. OMG. SRY..

Monday was suppose to go for art, ended up i over-slept..

Tuesday? Dont want to talk about it.

Wednesday? Dont know if i will wake up or not.. 

Oh yea. I had a FANTASTIC dream on monday. 

Dreamt that i was on my own at the movies.

But before that, dont know how i ended up in 

Some Indian Town.

The train ride, similar to riding a ROLLER COASTER LOR.

SO fun. haha.

In my dream, i was going to watch " KungFu Panda" le.

Then i bought popcorn and coke> $10.50.. so EXPENSIVE..

Then i asked the person behind the counter--

--""what time the  movie start ah""--

He said- started already.-

I was like WTF. Then waste my money.. 

But anyway, i ended walking up the steps to the cinema.

The before i know it, i heard my mom opening the main door.

YEa. i was sleeping til like noon.. HAHa.. 

OK. FREAKzz.. My mom is on my nerves.. Nagging!!!!!!!!!! ARGH..

Sis in Thailand!!

Well, my sis is - i presume - in thailand now.

Gonna miss her lots.. lol

Anyway, she'll be back in 3 weeks time!

Woot, hope she buys some great stuff back haha.. 

Ok i gtg sleep liao. mom getting angry..

NIGHTZzzz..

OMG. Ill smelling shit. 

From where?

I DONT KNOW

UGH.. SMells bad.. Maybe from WAtching too many "2 girls, one cup" videos! 

2 girls one cup

Holy shit! I laughed my head off by the reaction videos of "2 girls, one cup"

I have not watched it myself yet, but im ready to take on the worse.

LOL

Seriously, Go watch the reaction videos, EXTREMELY hilarious.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=V-bsP04dyjY&feature=related

Watch this one. The sound of the person puking is SO funny. HAHA

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3SNz8LmInNg&feature=related

This one is the footage of a whole family watching "2 girls, one cup".

My favourite reaction would be the second sister! 

BLAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH, BLAHHHHHH....

Go and watch it.

And BTW, if anyone knows where to find this video, TELL ME.. I wanna watch it.. hahaha

Oh well, nothing much to elaborate on. Just the videos.

Oh. I think i found the website for these DISGUSTING videos.. Need to sign up.

Sian.. haha.. 

Thought can watch for free. 

Aiyo, one more thing.

Im stuck with art for whole of June.

Got to do art every single day.

But ill do it for myself. 

Not for anyone.

 

Be gone. Bye.

LOves. 

The Internet aka the boring world filled with Nothing much to do.

Makes me wonder : why am i doing it still, if its that boring.

Oh well, thats life.

Worse comes to worse, i see myself hooked onto "YouTube".

Anyway, i have been deep in thought about ONE subject. 

Not studies.

BUT, him!

I just cant seem to keep my mind off him. Somehow, it keeps flowing back, like a ball on a sloped 

floor.

Why am i so into him?

Are we related one way or another?

Thats seems to quite true, at times, when i think about it.

I feel im just LIKE him.

Am i?

Some says yes.

I do agree.

But is it that hard to befriend him.

HOW? How will i ever overcome the "fear" in talking to him?

LOL

Anyway, im really troubled with thoughts about him. 

IM trying my hardest to stop.

But there is something i have that wont let me stop, cos i have faith.

And something something special i hold. 

HAHAHAHA

Anyway. i wanna stop here.. 

LOve.. U

Damn, i just found out this Compose Function!!

I didnt know i could do this,

Or this

EVEn thiS. 

1. MaYbE iM rEaLlY sLoW wItH tHeSe BlOgGiNg StUfF?
2. Or maybe im just not good at finding things ( not true )
3. Overall, this was fun!
   

WEll, i guess ill explore further tomorrow!!

For now. I gtg. 

Probably post something CREATIVE Next time.. 

Smiles! =D

DoGie pics. -.-

Be it for chinese man!

What to say?

All i can say, im really cooked meat for CHINESE, with baked potato and steamed vegetables.

Argh, im really nervous! Panicky! Frightened! Scared! Out of words ( which tells us im weak in Vocabulary )

Anyway, i was looking through the paper 1, ok, not that hard to read, but it came down to understanding the question!

And BLOODY hell, I wrote out of point for my letter writing! F4CK Oh well, its done already, no pointing F4CKING about..

Sigh, then i think for compo, i also sort of wrote of point.. DONT WANT TO GO ON FURTHER,.. Miserable like hell.

Then came the DREADFUL paper- PAPER 2 - .. LORD HAVE MERCY..

I understand the passage, but holy COWs. The questions were tough to comprehend! i was literally digging my arse for the answer ( JOKING ), but i was like flipping through the passage to question, trying to see where they were asking..SIGH

Overall, i could read and understand, sad thing? I could not do it..

Oh well, let us see how the TEAChers mark our papers.. Hope they dont mark it too strictly

OMFG.. The invigilator went to check my dictionary!!!!!!!!!! HOLY SHIT. i could have been kicked out and marked "CHEATING", cos i had some idioms written inside!! ARGH. so scary.. My hands were shaking lor! I was BLOODY SCARED. Waaahhh, can cry man... Some more the teachers were not kind-looking.. ALL look so mean de.. Especially this Lady.

She looked extremely familiar. Dont know where i've seen her before. But she was going down the row checking the dictionaries!! OMG, thank god i escaped man. I better go erase it all.

Even N levels they never check de lor.. Sian.. This would mark as one of my LUCKIESt days! SO heng...

Aiyo. TSK TSK TSK..... Chinese still rocks, with little hope that is..

I love u GUYS and GIRLS!!! Especially U.

Shitty

Got deleted by the BLOODY ass from MSN!!

F4CK him..

Sian, so ass hole. Sigh, now i cant contact him, except by HP, which he wont reply!!!

I hate him to hell now, but ill still think of him..

Gotta go study for Chinese O level Exam. Must get C6...!!!

LOve.

YAY! got a new charger for my ELECTRICITY-dependent phone..!!

OKOK, Last week>> friday, saturday, and sunday..

Ok. it was unbelievable! I confessed to him! Feels great!!

Then i told him the reasons on saturday midnight.

It's kinda long! U want to know? ( DONT TELL U) hahaha.. Joking!

Anyway, i got a surprise on VESAK day. OH, HAPPY VESAK DAY TO THOSE WHO CELEBRATE IT..

Back to the story. He deleted me from his friendster account! Oh well, at least he didnt remove me from his contact list on MSN.

Thank goodness! Oh well, im sadden but u know what, i cleared my conscience? ( is that the correct term?)

F4CK, the stupid pop up just had to say xy just signed in!!!!!!!!!!

OKOK, i know i did the right thing. I dont feel stressed like before.. haha.. Only he know whats the RIGHT answer!

Ill let fate decide. Eh, Sunday went to east coast park!!! Fun sia..

Cycle damn far, then got back, my mom asked where did i go.. HAHA.. LOL..

I went cycling..

Then ate dinner there. Yum, had this English type of fish and chips. Not bad.. Forgot the name.. I think its murphy something..

Then home-ed ( haha, notice im using the term home-ed, like some of the bloggers )

On vesak day, when out to Suntec eat. Haha, i was so greedy!

I went back and forth for free ice cream cones.. PS..

I had 3 cones Leh.. But hey, u pay $8.65 dollars for the salad bar, which had not many selections, fruits, pasta, soup.... etc , so why not..

Yea, its called Sizzler. Go check it out.

THen today, tuesday, i felt xy was like "avoiding" me.. LOL

Got one part, he was walking past my class, he used his book to shield his face..

DOnt know if its to protect his eyes from the sun, or trying to prevent me from staring at him.. Either way, i feel thats he felt weird after i actually confessed..

However, today was a good day except for the chinese mock exam.. Paper 1 still ok.. Then came paper 2.. I left all the comprehension questions blank! Dont understand the passage or the questions.. HOW???

Sigh.. Dont know how will my O level chinese turn out..

I pray for a C5..

At least i can proudly say i passed an O level ( chinese ) paper. Which i have not done for any major exams like PSLE and N levels..

Damn, i sympathize for the people in Myanmar and China.. Sad sia.. Both had One of the worst of natural disasters. One cyclone at a power of F4, the other Earthquake measuring a magnitude of 7.8 on the Ritcher Scale.. If only i could do more..

I have nothing more to say..

I guessed ill better post it, later say what, it fails to upload, ill be freakin; pissed!!!!

LOve.

YAY! got a new charger for my ELECTRICITY-dependent phone..!!

F4ck

Yesterday, approximately 1230 am, i took the courage to tell xy..

Well, i was prepared, but i typed out the message, then search for his HP number.

I was not ready to send it, and i knew, if i pressed the sendy button with me knowing i actually did it would pretty much make me
over-think.

So i ended up using my palm and squeezed my phone tight, making sure i press the sendy button.

And true enough, i pressed it hence i send it.

I was awake til like 140am+, cos i was preparing for any incoming SMS.

Well, i thought over and over again, what his reply would be, but unfortunately, i must have assumed he would reply.

So, it was kinda a waste of my time, but u know, there's always a first time doing things.

And indeed, this was my first time typing such a SMS.

Oh well, at least he knows. Maybe he read it, didnt bother to reply.

Or maybe he read it, and deleted my message. I dont know, only he will know what i sent him. And only he will know the true answer to that message.

Or should re-try tonight? This time a longer, more elaborated message? Maybe..

I just hope, pray, wish and dream he would just tell me.
why let it linger.

Im losing my mind. Someone pls help?!?

Failing is the process of learning. I agree.

Hmm, perviously i said my post that my humanities was on the brink of failing.

Tables turned when i got back my SS results.

Guess what?!?

I PASSED! Woooooot. Thats awesome. On the dot 50 marks.

Phew, how lucky was i?

Anyway. today, got back my A maths paper results. I failed terribly.

55.5/180

Hmm, kind of relief, cos most of people failed too.. HAHa.. lol

On whole. Including CA1, i most probably fail chinese, A maths, And art.

Dont ask me how i failed art. I just didn't pass up my art pieces thats why.

I am tired of failing man. I really , for once, want to pass everything.

Well... I have to go. Extremely tired. And too engrossed to xy.. HAH.

LOve.

Relief and pain.

Received my EL and chem paper results. I wasn't too happy with my chem, neither was i happy for my EL paper results.

I didn't get my wanted A1 for chem, and it has been a long time since i gotten an A1 for SCIENCE. Last year N levels i had an A2, which to me was pathetic, cos i knew i put in the effort to do that paper.

This year mid yr. I realised the paper was easy, but unfortunately, its not easy to score! SIGH.

Anyway, EL. i failed.. O.O wow. 46/100.

Although it wasnt that bad of a fail grade, i still felt as though if i could be given another chance to re-do the paper ill do my best.

Double shock today.

Anyway. ill update later ..

22:46

Well, i got back from Chinatown about 2100. Ate dinner there. YUM, had those sort of traditional chinese food there! Really tasty man. Ill go back there anytime soon. =D

Well, then headed home after some shopping. Then while eating/shopping, i actually told Sak my secret about xytb. And she took it in. Phew, i was kind of afraid somehow, but she didnt make a fuss out of it. She advised me to tell him, but cautioned me about the out come.

Then got home, went to post blog, at the same time went to visit A.C's blog.

Read half-way, saw xy's name! I was like F***, didnt expect that name to be there! lol.. Seriously. I was like i also want to taste CLAM soup! LOL.

Big deal, ill go buy some canned clam soup, make hot and eat lor.

Sian. Well, hope im able to achieve my wanted wish.
.Really wish.

But on top of that, i managed to tell some of my closest friends. Well, its just a matter of time. A matter of time before the true can be told. :D

I wanna go play game now.. lol.. Bye

LOve..

Oh well

Let it be a lesson. Ok, Today i got back my Maths, Geography and Physics.

I'll start off with the good ones first.

Maths, i did ok. Not bad, got A1.. LOL.. made some of my classmate envious. SORRY.

But i had to say that the paper itself wasn't that hard, dont know why they all complain. Sigh. Maybe cos i did it once before.

But anyway, moving on to physics, Got A1 too. LOL..

ARGH, my mom nagging. She just said " everyday, come home same routine ah?" HA.. Ha.. I have got nothing to say.

Anyway, Now, the bad news. Geography. Even if i had study i failed. It wasn't a bad fail, but a border line fail? .. 40/100

Sigh, i got so shocked lor, i thought at least 50 marks lor.. Sian.. Thats the bad news. But more to come.

Bet my mom would be furious about my results.. LOL..

But what can i do, but just hope my SS can pull The subject " combined humanities" up. IMPOSSIBLE.

Then again, i didnt put in effort to study, i only did study for geo. thats about it.. Mostly all flip through book and read lor..

Tomorrow might get back EL, MT, Chem paper. Damn, im tired. And im sleepy. And wesley's bugging me for xytb's MSN, which i find not needed, cos xytb is so not the type who mingles with ppl he doesnt know in person.. Sigh. DOnt STEAL!!!!!!!!!

So, i am stopping here.

ByeWith love. xytb!

HAPPY MOTHER"S DAY.

WOOOOt. Today was fun.

Well, MOM, Happy Mother's Day!

Went to grandma house, gave her flowers. Then ate lunch there.

Then afterwards, when to changi collect mail, then when to SuShi tei at Taka cos mother's day ma.. Then after eating, Went to watch "Speed Racer"

Awesome movie. Had the really cool special effects and all. But the seats sucked.. LOL.

Some cinema got high head rest lor.. But the one at Orchard didnt have the high head rest, then my neck started to cramp, then i slumped in my seat, so that my head could rest on the head support. Sigh, that was the suckiest part of the movie-the seat-..

Then i was urgent to pee LOR. Every move i made, i could the pee shifting in my bladder. So horrible the feeling.

But i refused to go to the toilet in the midst of the show, cos i didnt want to disrupt the movie, and afraid i may block people's view. So i have to ta han until movie ended.

U wouldnt believe how long i peed for.. I think almost more than 1 minute sia, cos i stood there peeing, peeing.. IT JUST KEEPS FLOWING. LOL

Poor bladder. Must have over stretched my bladder.

The movie is a must watch, as the racing parts were really good. But i wished that the Climax would be longer.. LOL..

I love scenes that are EXCITING.

The day before, which is saturday, went to Botanic Gardens with the dog.. LOL

The dog kept controlling its pee, then finally had to bring him to this nice sheltered area somewhere in the centre of the Garden to pee. Then lay down newspaper just for him to pee, But end up, he pee on the ground!

Then i had to clean it with tissue.. Thank god it wasnt alot though.. LOL

Then my mom was like saying, like baby like that. Must prepare everything when going out.. HAHA..

Literally, we packed water, newspaper, snacks, toilet paper, towel, food tray.... ..... ..... What a lucky dog. So pampered i feel.

Anyway, after he peed, we walked for a while more, then headed back home.

=D ..

I gtg sleep.

NightZzzz

Phew. Mid years exams are over!

YAY.. Exams are finally over, but not yet the major O levels.

LOL

Oh well, lets just see how well i fair in this Mid Year Exam.

Maybe not that bad though, cos i think the papers i didnt put in effort were the chinese, art and A maths.

I mean, not saying i didnt put in the effort, its just too tight for any doing of art, and i didnt have the mood to study for Chinese and A maths.

Pls, i really feel bad ok..

But the happy news is, EXAMS ARE OVERRRRRR!!..

Weeee. time to enjoy?

Well not exactly enjoy, cos still O level CHINESE> Damn, really hate it.

Sigh, i hope to get C6.. at least.

Anyway, i am trying my best to that idiot (xytb) to reply me on BLODDY msn.. Shit on him.

Anyway, i am hoping to confess soon.. So we'll see what goes on beyond then.

And i want to go play Viwawa. Damn fun.. =.=

haha.. OK .

Bye.. LOVe with thousand and one kisses.. Yum i like kisses, the chocolate.. LOL

And to xytb. i _______________________________________________________________ LOL..

ART if finally OVER for the Mid-year that is

YESSSSSSSSSSSSSS. Its over! Damn, today REALLY TOOK THE TOLL on me.

Had A maths in the morning! Which was 2 and a half hours LONG!!!!!

But the paper 2 can do more than paper 1. LOL

I was sleeping, when a teacher walked over and tapped me on my shoulders! Damn, i was dozing off la.. Could not concentrate. SO BLOODY HARD TO DO WHEN I AM HOT, SLEEPY and HAVING A BAD NECK ACHE.

ERRR hum. And plus i had to go for art exam, which total up to 5 hours and 30 minutes of EXAMZZZ .. FREAK!

Envy those ppl who arrive for POA, and left an hour later.. -.-" thats so shitty.

After finishing ART, i had a pounding head ache man.. SO painful lor.. But whatever, as long as art is over im HAPPY!

At least i did 3 pieces. And i manage to colour about 3/4 of my final artwork. Which to me a is okay.. Cos i never ever finish colouring my artwork.

Anyway, after 5 hours in school, i swear to myself i am not taking any art courses in POLy, unless it is an interesting course that requires me to draw, not COLOUR.

Im sick of moving my pencils up and down, keeping in mind the NEEDED 5 values! UGH.

Sian. Then after art ended, i went to look at W.C's art work!! HOLYYYY.. Damn, nice la.. comfirm A1 de

Well, i might get C5, but i sure get 50+, a just passed mark.

Anyway, the stupid head ache is continuing.. Im gonna go rest..

Updates on Yesterday's and today's newsy..

Anyway, i didnt have the time to post yesterday. I was just too tired to move. Also, i wanted to sleep really bad. Didnt have the mood to study.

So, Yesterday's A maths paper didnt go so well. Flipped through the paper to check for any lost of any printed pages etc, to my shock, i didnt study for most of the topics.

OK, i admit. I didnt even touch my book.

Anyway, i was hoping some topics wont come out, but thats kinda unfortunate. Many questions were not answered, and i bet 10000000000000000000000000000000000 dollars that ill fail.

Is there even such amount?

Moving on. Then after attempting every single question. I just gave. Turn my head over to the express, see everyone so hardworking-ly doing the paper. I felt so bad, cos i slept for like 30 minutes?

What made the atmosphere worse was the humidity in the hall. The fans didnt even have the power to blow that far. LOL.. ( ACTUALLY THEY DO) .

But was sweating bullets man. Kept wiping my forehead. So stuffy..!!

On to today's paper. Maths was ok. I didnt really find it """""""""THAT"""""" hard. Like real.

First question skip liao.. LOL

Then to my SURPRISE, there was actually A maths topic inside. Like the "circular measure". So familiar.

Then i was kinda happy cos i did very well in that topic.. HAH.

The sad thing was i LEFT out a question. I FORGOT ABOUT THAT, THEN END NOT DOING THAT PART..

SHITTY LA

Then came CHEMISTRY... DNAG DANG dang.. ... ...

I didnt study for chem, and i kinda regret doing so.

I cant believe that the paper was quite easy.. Nothing like what Mrs Chia said- Rather let u all die now, then die at O levels"

LOL.

But overall was ok. i managed to finish. And i am not sure i got the mass of electron correct or not. I put 1/1840..

ARgh.. i dont want to check my textbook for the answer.. Scared later wrong.. SIGH..

Oh yea. my neck killing me sia..

Dont know why so painful. Maybe its the way i stick my neck to look at the questions.. REALLY DONT KNOW.

Then the weather + my neck ache + (thinking about someone) = CANT CONCENTRATE!!!

Oh well, guess its my fate.

BTW, i have been re-thinking about if i should confess or not. Then i kept trying to answer my own question. It keeps circulating in my head. And i still haven;t found the "right" time yet.. I almost wanted to do it, then i withdraw.. SIANZx

What to do next? Tell me / comment.. LOL

OK, i gtg do my sickening art.. ugh. ART.. Why ART!!!

Rofl

Bye, with LOve of course.. LOVE YA BITCHES + ONE (xytb).. kekekeke

hmmm.

Ok, i cant stand it. My mom keeps yelling at me for the most tiniest matter ( i think )

Ok, i know i have exams, but in the morning she is already yelling at me for going to school late.

Alright, i admit, i left my house late. But the exam starts at 8 am.. and my house clock is 5 minutes early. And whenever she sees 7:40.. She starts her daily morning nagging.

I am not angry, but i find it irritating. For number one. U're having exams in the morning and the least u can do is get out of the house in a bad mood right?

Ok, it was such a relief to actually leave the house. Cos i finally feel that im free from her torturous "non"-stop nagging.

Sometimes it drives me up the wall. hahaha .. NO la.. Just that i want someone to communicate, then rather a nagging machine. IM sorry.

Anyway. Today was Geo and Phys paper.. Ugh.

Can it get any harder? LOL. I mean. The Geography map reading was like so hard to answer la.. Like got questions that ask u to compare and describe. I cant even see any difference.. All looked the same de..

Anyway, i am glad i woke up this morning to study. Cos if i hadn't, i would not have known how to do the tourism questions.

Last 15 minutes of Geo paper, was like rushing through section A and B.. Cos i didnt even finish the second part of section A..

My handwriting definitely looked ugly!

Next. Doomsday paper. Physics.. CAN DIE SIA..

I managed to most of the question. Then came the killer questions on ELECTRICITY!

I had no ides how to do.. All of a sudden i blank out, and for got my electricity formulas!!! SO SIAN!!..

But i managed to complete the paper la.. Thank god.

So worried lor.. Sigh. Dont know how the results will be like..

Anyway, I have to go study for my A maths paper tomorrow.

O yea. today A.C showed me a picture he took in the bus. SEMEN???

LOL.. ehhh. gross lor. Especially when he accidentally step on it.. haha.

OK <3 2 1

Bye..

Is it that HOT!

OMG, this few days so bloody hot. GLOBAL WARMING?

I know, change ur light bulbs to energy-saving ones NOW !!!!!!!!!!!!!

Hmm, Stop reading my blog and shut the computer off. save ELECTRICITY !!!!!!!

Haha. Do ur part in recycling, reducing and reusing!

Damn, this is my 4th post today !!!

Gotta stop..

ok bye

Oh my..

I just realized i can change the GMT. Therefore i dont need to manually change the time date!!! woot hoooooo!

And here i continue! I LOVE BiG BuTTs AnD i CANnoT LiE

Okok. getting lamer as i keep continuing.

But i still like failing is the process of learning!

=D

With zillions of sincerity. I admit i do!

like

F.I.T.P.L ( guess it urself! ) Links to something which i keep repeating!

Wooooot hoooooo...

Failing is the process of learning.

I like big butts and i cannot lie! And blah blah blah blah blah!

Can't remember the lyrics.

And here i go! I LIKE BiG BUTTS AND I CANNOT LIE!

i like failing is the process of learning!

Cos i like big butts and i cannot lie.

I cant lie!

Science Practical.

Hmm, what can i say?

Practical was messy. The test were so not obvious. Had to look around for people's result on chemistry ppt colour change.

Well, i did the second of the question of the chemistry one, and was doing the last part, when i looked up and saw one of my classmates getting a BLUE ppt!

I was shocked, cos i was like wondering where in the world did the BLUE ppt occurred.

Then when back to question 1, then did the experiment again. First time i did it, The solution itself was CLEAR.

Then i did it the second time round, and i actually achieved BLUE ppt! I was like, WTF. How come just now cant get it at all?
Then had to cancel all my answers and rewrite what i observed! My paper so messy.. Argh!!

Then another part that made me RETEST like freakin' 3 times. The stupid solid that i strongly heated turned yellow. OK, that one was ok. Then when i tried to test using lime water. Nothing happened. No WHITE ppt at all..

Then i asked my partner, he said there was carbon dioxide.

Then here i go again. Turn on the bunsen burner, reheat till yellow, and tested it again.

I did the same routine over and over, until i finally gave up. But in the end? I still didnt get the CHALKY lime water result. -.-"

Overall, the experience was great! I had my own side of the table and chemistry apparatus. :)

Then came to physics practical. It wasn't that bad. Quite easy. But im not sure if its all correct or not.

Sigh, the chemistry practical really sucked. Trying to focus, but everything come out like shit. LOL

Failing is the process of learning.

I really like u!

LOL

With sincere, love and respect. Brendon!

Adore the puppy eyes.

Omg, Chinese PAPER 1 and 2! I will most probably fail. Thats for sure.

I could barely read any of the words. But for the paper 1, i manage to read partially. Although i could read the information given, i had a hard time doing it. i just wrote random stuff, trying really had to make my letter writing and letter long. Hmmm, i wrote about one page and a half... Sigh.. Sure die for the chinese paper. Did i mention that xytb was directly across, two column away. Hahaha, nothing special..

Anyway, after the exam, W.C , sak and i went for keefe's help on organic chemistry. Haha, and he sat beside me. Holy. His eyes were so sparkly.. Just like puppies eyes.

He did a good job explaining, but after he left we had a hard time reading what he wrote on the paper, cos his writing was like of a doctor.

In the end, he left at about 2:15pm, then soon after W.C left, leaving behind sak and me. Haha..

To round it all off, i had a great time today. I revised my past year topic with the help of keefe. I actually love his teaching. Dont know la. LOL.. But the feeling of sitting beside was really cool. Feels so warm. :P

-.-" i know, i know.

Here's a picture. I think He's love-sick. Wish i could help.. Sigh..



LOL

I did fun stuff today!!!! Woot.

I posted random videos on my previous post. Realised Video itself is ok, but the sad thing is that its jerky. The buffering on its own is ok, but the playback sucks.. LOL.. Maybe its my phone video quality. But the video on my com is perfect. Dont know la. maybe because its on the web?




^^ This video not for the faint-hearted. ;)

Success can also be spelled as sak-cess. Jk

Anyway, since i SUCCESSFULLY post pictures on my blog. Guess ill post more.. lol.. Maybe now ill try VIDEO uploading?



^^ SH chasing kim! LOL.
Ok, now got to wait for the video to process...




^^ haha, Guess what? He was trying to get ready for my camera, guess he didn't know i was video taping him!
Kekeke, so funny..

testing testing for photo uploads.

Thats me, holding IPODs.. a photo with our wonderful sculpture made by wesley and me back in 2006, when i was in 3/8 and he was in 3/4... SIGH, the good times..



Thats the ALMOST finished sculpture. We had smack tiny stones at the base to make PRETTIER. LOL.

Anyway, we were just letting out to dry? I suppose. Do u even believe that sculpture was so heavy?



Next, this photo taken when i was at Death Valley in 2005.Hmmm, based on that pic of me, it looks like im throwing rocks.. LOL.. DAmn hot la, but it is not that sticky compared to SINGAPORE. Down there still cool lor.

SO, this post is just random pics of the past few years. Just testing it out, cos i never tried uploading photos on my blog before.. SAD case sia..

OK then. Enjoy.. Ill post more..

Update on 24 April's post.

Yes, so i was messaging xytb using Sak's phone. Ok, no good news at all.

Kept trying to use Sak's phone to help me get closer to ben. No use man. Got one part i asked him " hey, if u bored you can chat with Brendon(me) hahahahaha"

His reply was " pls dont include him into OUR conversation".

LOL.. The only UNKNOWN part was that, he doesn't know it is me on the other end sending him those sms-es.

Haha, i asked Sak's permission if i could tell him that its ME smsing him, but she said no...

Overall, the conversation was different. I mean, nothing compared to me talking to him before.

Update on 25th April 2008

Hmm, i chat with xytb on MSN yesterday. One comment. BORING..

He kept saying to me " if you got anything important to say, just say. OR else go find some1 else " .. -.-""

OK. then after a while later he signed off, then like 10 minutes later, he came online again.

Thats when i took my chances. I talked to him again.. JEEEZ, guessed he didnt want to chat.. LOL . cos he didnt even reply..

HAHA.. He's so funny-weird-bizarre-freakishly-awkward guy i have EVER met. Damn, first person that i actually found so hard to have a conversation with.


Ok, bye


LOVe. gtg buy dinner...

Studying....... Daze...

Got woken up at 8:30 by my mom. She yelling cos our dog peed on the floor.. LOL. But seriously, does any one know how to prevent or train a dog from peeing on the floor?

Anyway, my mom was quite furious his morning. But she went back to sleep soon after, which i took advantage of. I used the computer till 11:30am, then went to sleep. Then woke up again at 1:30pm to eat lunch.. Ok, today wasn' that productive. But i tried reading up on Physics topic on transformer......... I didnt get a single thing. I just could't understand anything in that topic.!

OMG.. Then i was so sick of reading Physics that i went to use the com again.. AS usual, went to the normal websites. NOT PORN HOR.... LOL

Hmm, I plan to do my art today. So most probably i would do it right after dinner.. HAH, then if i rest can go watch TV!!!

Nothing to report on today. Oh yea, i couldn't recall what i wanted to continue on my previous post.. LOL

Ill go brain-storm.. Bye

LOve...

Failing is the process of learning.

LOL. Such funny phrase. =D

Today was English paper 1 and 2. Wouldn't say it was easy because i didn't think i wrote well for my compo and letter writing.

Paper 2 - passage A was so hard to read and understand! Damn, had a hard time trying to read and understand the passage..

Overall, i am confident of achieving B3? HAhaha.

But im serious!

OK, stayed back in school today, studied with sak and wei chuan.

Hmm, it was fun, cos that was actually the first time i studied in school.!! But anna keep interrupting.. LOL, then i indirectly "scolded" her.. I feel bad.

Woot, new record set!

Then after-wards. i we played Catching till 5..

GTG. sis bugging AGAIN...

LOve..

Choking on Spicy food?

Like what the title says. Yes, i choked on chilli again. But today wasn't that bad.. LOL

Anyway, i just watched finished a two part documentary on ARMY. I just clicking about on YOUTUBE when i stumbled upon this Video called - the first hundred days -. Ok, i got to admit, i was definitely not prepared for what i was suppose to watch. The training itself is so vigorous.. HOLY.. Based on certain parts of the documentary, i found some parts fun, while some parts were kind of un-comfortable.

Ok, heading over to school. Today, i think i had an argument with art teacher Mr ho. Well i considered it an argument as i was like retaliating and talking back.. Cos i was trying to reason with him that i do do my art, only that i never complete. LOL.

Anyway, today i wasn;t really happy with the spraying of the board... so er, ugly as it didn't have sufficient water effect on it.. Sian, i was hoping samuel would help me, but instead he only offered to splash the water and i do the spraying.. SIGH..

Anyway, i used sakeena's phone to sms xytb. Haha, kept asking him why not he go chat with Brendon(me).. hahaha.

Will blog another part another time.. -.-" sis bugging me..!

LOve..

Starting of my process.

Lets me start of with, I ALMOST CHOKED TO DEATH ON TOM YAM NOODLES TODAY!!!!!!!!! OMG, so spicy, then i suddenly choke while drinking the soup. What the HELL.. My reaction must have too exaggerated. But SERIOUSLY, it burnt my throat, then for a while i couldn't speak.

But anyway, the Main Subject is about "it". Somehow,today whenever i walked over to 5/2, i see him exiting the main door of 5/2. And obviously, being made to forget everything about him, i just turned back and returned to my class. This happened after Chinese during recess.. and EVEN after school. But i couldn't be bothered looking and noticing "it".

I refer him as "it", because i am just trying to brainwash myself, by using IT, instead of his name.. Which i Think is working.

One problem seems to lie in the fact that i simply cannot take my mind of "it". Sak aka my close friend , preferred not letting me what "it" said about me. But i am so eager to know... LOL...

The reason is censored. ( ______________________________________________) for i am a Extremely good friend



And im called a hamster.. AWWWWWW, so adorable.

:) Thanks sak for doing me a favour.

With LOve.

Miserable as ever before.

What a day! It seems like everything's going hay-wire. Unbelievable.

I was practically feeling moody from Physics period onwards. Nonetheless, i had fun after school. We laughed, chatted and even went to look at some friends' blog! LOL.

I cant explain why i felt miserably-talkative as always-in a bubbly mood- feel. Its really annoying. Well, most probably it was during maths period when i somehow felt myself sipping away into darkness- the silent mode i call it - But its really frustrating enough.

Anyway, this post is another update on my day. Dont wanna talk more or even start about detailing my way into my miserable "world".

DAMNIT. my mom saw the letter mr ho sent. Damn, i received a text message VIA my phone, as my mom must have opened the letter box when she was on her way to see my grandma. ! ARGH. Shit, better start doing..

I am Miserably sorry i caused any uneasiness on any of my friends today. Its none of you guys fault.

LOve. Shitty life..

No logic.. None what so ever.

Ok, lets start off with the same topic which i have touched on with. XYTB. It is the same old, what do you expect topic. But this is time it is not on my feelings but rather his pathetic reply when one of my close friends asked him why he never talks to me. Well, being inquisitive to find out the reason, i went along with the plan to investigate further.

And holy BULLSHIT ( sorry ), the reply from him was. Norband (he) has no frequency with me. WHAT THE HELL.. So what the.. Whats that type of reply. Anyone get it.. ? maybe he meant mode? I dont know..

Anyway, i just want to chat with him. Is that so HARD? jeeeeeeez.. So weird ass one.

Crap shit on his stupid-retardedly-ridiculars-BLOODY-ass-freaking reply!

HAHA, too much Vulgarities already.. I have POTTY mouth.. ugh, JUST WANNA CHAT.. THATS ALL, not asking you to die or anything.

:) LOve..

im opening up..? (a bit)

Ok, i have mention my likings for xytb to a couple of my friends. Some acknowledged it, well mostly my close friends did. I have yet to open up. I may not your typical boy boy you see loitering streets glancing at girls walking by or any of those sort for your information. I dont show any bias thinking between any gender or religion, but i think we should accept people who were born like this. I could myself as an example. I liking xytb doesn't proof a whole lot. But now i do, kind of, accept when poeple say i do. I cant change or bluff my way through my whole life can i? I lived in shadows for too long of a time.

Anyway, Introduction OVER. TOday so funny. It was my turn to do the standing board jump test.

I stood at the line, somehow my legs felt unready to jump. I was aiming like 210cm ++

I jump and SHIT i BLOODY hell managed to jump 185+, and i bounced over to 270cm+ lol.... I actually made double jumps.. SIAN. then the class was like laughing, but at least it wasnt THAT embarrassing.. I tried again, the same old numb feeling filled my leg. then jump like 190cm +

So lame lor.. last time i managed to jump 214cm..

Phew, at least mr YEE, was kind. he allowed me to take the 214cm result.. lol

Then moving on to sit reach.. SO STUPID.. kept reaching for 46( for 5 points) but keep getting 44, 45, 43......!!!!!!!

Finally!!! 46.5cm.. LOL what the. Had to reach my arms so far out, it almost dislocated. -.- the PE instructor kept saying"" u want to try again?, u want to try again?, only 45 cm... need 46 to get 5 points..""

Then came the sit ups.. I used to be able to do 40++++++. SHIT, grew fatter, now also can barely do 40./.... WHAT THE SHIT MAN>..

I did manage 34... but HW made it 35, the thiru edited it to 36cm... -.-

Well, better than nothing..

Last of all.. Shuttle Run.. I did 10.88 seconds...YAY.

But only to be put down when i saw i only have 1 STUPID ASS POINT!!!!!!!!! SHIT THAT TEST LA... I thought i could at least get 3 points of id not 5 points!!!

BLOODY HELL. OH, well. i guess my physical condition is slowly declining..!!

FROM gold award on primary school to LIKE BRONZE!!!!!!!!! what the asssssss..(xytb likes someone's assssss)

OH YEA....ms christine tan wanted me and a few friends form 5/2 to stay back to write a report as we were late for the STUPID after recess assembly ..!! BUT thankfully, she gave a chance..

SO shitty, i didnt even realised we were late. didnt hear the bell, COS our class is like situated in the corner, where one block bloacks most of the sound waves!!!! SO hard to hear the ring LA..

went for A maths, kept on laughing and laughing with sak.. ""aiya, u're so stupid la u" ... LOL

Then we had great, enjoying and overall relaxing time playing poker cards...!! My favourite year by far...

Anyway. i have toched bottoms of matters that went on today..

DAY: fun!! :)

LOve. Buh bye... DUHHHHHHH, im a silly stupiddddd boiiii!!!! DUHHHHHHHHHHHHH,,, errrrrrrrr.. bye

Eye to eye?

Today was really weird. i went down late, as i was waiting and staring at mrs cheong. For some reason, i just wanted her to say that she wanted to teach our class.. But, haha, i guess she doesn't want to make 5/2 jealous. Also students from 5/1 were practically fighting and arguing about wantting mrs cheong back. Dang, but i dont find it necessary to do so, as we all should get a chance in getting taught by mrs cheong..

Oh yea. We had science practical this monday.. Mr Chan (keefe) took us as mrs chia didnt come today. Damn, i feel weird.. Keep having eye contact with him. Felt a connection there.. ^^ love him.. Dont know what kind/type of feeling that is.

Anyway, the main topic just so happens to be on XYTB. I made it through one day without mentioning his name. BUT! after school, when i was looking in XYTB's direction, he somehow stared at me. =o Holy. Bless me. We somehow look at each other. But obviously i looked away, trying not to be over the top. But i stared at him!! So cool.. haha lol.

Oh, one more thing. Walking to school when i realised i forgot about my art file. LOL. I was cursing and swearing.. ;P


this is getting a bit too dry. better stop.

LOve xytb. :)

a guy??

I this has really bothered me since the day my eyes fell upon him. It was love at first sight i suppose. I never realised i would be so crazily mad over over him! Its driving me nuts; up the wall. I cant stand it no more.

We have never spoken in person before, ok, maybe a few words, but never a proper conversation. It never occurred to me that i was emotionally and physically attracted to him. I cant explain it. Isnt it the girls are suppose to fall for a guy so SEXY? I mean, i didnt fall for his SEXINESS, but mainly i fell in love with his looks. Maybe one ill transform into a lady and who knows, be his love of his life..

I hate the feeling of having to escape every single time i see him. I hate not talking to him. I like talking to friends, but why in the hack does he not want to talk to me? It bothers me a lot. Its makes me think too much, MAKING my friends think im weird..

It is not me. I am regarded as one of his "school work" friends.. Which somehow doesn't make sense.. (( ill get to his name later)) I would post a photo, but it would be far too OBVIOUS.

Anyway, he is literally taking over my brain. Like a virus infecting a hard-drive of a computer. I find it really really tedious just trying to forget him.. I have tried. Tried where i mentally cant focus on my work!

HOW? someone please suggest a way i can solve my overly obsession of this guy!

I have thoughts where i think of trading bodies with him.. Isnt that too much? You tell me..

HOW??

Beg of you..

His name? > XYTB... Sigh..

I am his so called virtual online friend.. REALITY? I guess not. just want to know what he thinks.

Im addicted.. I need help, urgently.. help..




This post is the FIRST ONE THIS YEAR 2008. ;)

Anyway, i have no relationship, or any sort with him, i just want to befriend with him.

Well, thanks, if you can help advise me.! that would be great!!

With LOve.

PLS, its extremely PRIVATE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I think IM psychic. Maybe.

reading my blog dated 17 december 2007, i had a shock.

I dreamt i did well, a 4 point aggregate.( for best three subjects)

And BINGO! i was right. Spot on.

Im happy (ecstatic). I never would have thought i get an A1 for art. I mean, come on, i hate art since the day i started it to be honest. I hated the stress of having to think of ways to elaborate my drawings, shortage of time to complete an artwork, and... ( pauses to think) colouring. I hated colouring, because it always meant that i had to be perfect from the start. My art had to be perfect otherwise its shit to me.

Not only did i thought i chose the wrong decision back in sec 3, i wanted desperately to switch to POA. But i just seemed to go along with the 'art' flow. doing what i had to do. I was unhappy. Until sec 4, my teacher Mr Ho, advised me to take up creative drawing instead of batik. Which i did. My first time drawing on such an ENORMOUS board! But i guess Mr Ho knew what he was doing. He was helping me achieve my A1. And he did.

And For that. I THANK YOU SO MUCH MR HO!!

My Paper 1 for art ( coursework ) was well done, but i screwed up Paper 2 for art. Fortunately, i still prevail.

Thanks god.

I am happy with my results. At least i believed myself and did my best.

Well, im glad my friends will make it next year.

Coolness.

Bye.

OMG, most nerve-wrecking moment i have ever experienced!!!

18 dec 2007, knowing ma results for N level.

Had dreams ( nightmares? ) that i fail and doing well, it felt so realistic for goodness sake.

Today, i dreamt of myself doing so well. 4 points. FANTASTIC, i even cried when i was going to collect my result.

I was ecstatic. But then i woke up, and slept again. And then i had another dream; of the same topic!

This time it was >5 points and i felt disappointed. AHHHHHHH, talk about scary.

HOPEFULLY I DO EXTREMELY WELL, AND PROMOTE.

Sigh, tomorrow's the actual day. I'll finally know the truth damn it.

I noticed something, as the day comes nearer, i feel more scared.

this was what i wanted to finish and post a few weeks back. And i still haven't finish. ( part one )

The you in my previous post is ME. Me writing the story, Get it? lol

Continued from : Thinking hard; you finally recalled that its the first day in a new school and environment, everything about it is new, even the teachers and students. It was to be a brand new day in New Town Secondary School. Not knowing what was to come, you headed to school just like what you did back in primary school.

Strange looking students stare at you as you enter the hall, and you peer back into their black-beady eyes, trying to show them that you're just any normal kid they see. Nonetheless, you feel a bit isolated because people all around seem to be happily chatting except you.

Introduction of teachers and ice-breaking sessions for students were conducted in the hall. So there's you feeling a little shy around the crowd of people, not knowing what to say about yourself, you suddenly feel the confidence to speak, and there, everyone there knows about you.

Heading on towards class, a gangsterish-looking, tall (wesley, thats U) student came up to you and ask for your PSLE score, and timidly you gave the answer. Well, maybe not that kind of description.. LOL

Although the gangsterish-looking guy had higher PSLE score than you, you both still managed to befriends.

That was how the story started.

Me (Brendon) recalling what i saw about wesley. Wesley was an extremely focused person, knowing his aims in life and so on.
Wesley sat in the front, where the teacher table was, listening so attentively, making sure every single detail went in, and there was me, sitting behind Alex ( i think ), maybe Huan Wei.

Anyway, Wesley was not really opened to me at first, and he used to prank me by calling me and making that silly but scary voice ( i dont know how to discribe it, but dude, you really scared the hell out of me )

Im serious about that being very scared. I still remember my heart was beating so rapidly, DAMN YOU.. LOL

I think the story part is over. Need more reality on blogs mah.

I could still remember Wesley didnt even want to tell me his chinese name, er, not sure why though. lol

Sec 1, hmm, i definitely remember the after chases we had Wesley, running in and out of the classrooms was fun.

And not forgetting the times when you suddenly turn zombie-like to scare me, and some more the classroom lights were OFF.
EeeeeK, i was so freaked out that i snatched my bag and ran out of the class, if you still can remember.

Secret corner in the library, wow, thats definitely something to remember for the rest of our lifes. Nothing happened okay, just mutual friendship and plain young minds. We were very young that time.

TO BE CONTINUED IN PART 2.

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BYE .

.. title-less ..

I love A maths lesson, especially with mrs ng teaching us.

Something bummer i heard from my teacher was that next year on, we'll be taking the new syllabus. -.- sucks

Then something i heard today really totally burst my bubble. Sets going to be in E-maths. BUT circular measure is going to be in E-maths too. So cool.

Not 100% sure about that, but i just hate sets. Hate sets because i cant do it. Ugh. LOL

Anyway, im still thinking whether im going to post what i wrote the past two-three weeks.
We'll see.

It has been raining everyday. I mean EVERYDAY. And imagine, Singapore actually flooded.(that was days ago.)

My post is gradually getting boring. Im stopping okay. FINE

Bye.

Wooot

YAY!, i have been well for two days so far. YAY, im so happy.

You wouldn't know what its like when you're finally able to eat a proper meal, when you could not when you were sick before.

So, but one advantage i find being sick helped me was that it'll make me skinny. lol
Well, at least to an extent where i lost 1 kg.
But the most i ever lost for being sick was i think 4 kg? Which includes tonnes of vomitting.

Anyway, i was hoping to finish something i started like two weeks back. Hopefully.

I just want to finish it!!!

Ok, not much newsy today. So im stopping here.

Bye, sigh for the short posty.

ugh, im feeling miserable!

Just as my dry throat, and pounding head ache seem to disappear into thin air, another ache come along.

And this time, i feel pain with every deep breathe i take, every turn i take to my left ! Even laughing is a torture.

Yup, you may have gotten it right, but some my not.

I HAVE THIS STUPID LEFT SHOULDER ACHE!!!!!!!!!!

Speak of BAD luck.

LOL

I may have slept so wrongly the night before.

Anyway, i hope that stupid, sickening and not forgetting painful ache runs out of my body before i use a butter and dig it out!

Sounds so gruesome. lol

Im just not going to laugh for the whole day. Maybe i cant forever. Damn, then Earth would really miss my charm.

Bye. :P

nightmares

I just had a nightmare, 2nd december 2007, and i woke up at 730am, talk about body alarm clock. LOL

And for the pst few days, i hadn't been feeling my greatest, because i am sick.
My throats dry, my eyeball hurts when i try to look up, down, left, and right, my head had this weird pain as though someone was pounding my head with a hammer and lastly my body seems to hurt whenever i turn.

My back hurts but its getting better.
The worst part was that 3 days ago, i felt so cold. My foot was freezing, and i could barely squeeze my hand into a fist.

Anyway, i think im feeling better after that stupid nightmare i had earlier on.

I think i was moaning in my sleep just now. LOL

Anyway, i hope to recover soon enough, and what a drag, i have to go school tomorrow for A-maths lessons.

Ok, ill still haven't finish on one of my post. That post is long.

Ok then. guess i'll just walk around my house, im afraid that when i go sleep, ill dream about it AGAIN.

The dream is kind of hard to describe, but DAMN was i panicking .

Im sleepy.

Bye.

... out of words ..

Wesley's leaving for Hong Kong. Yes, he is. Not happy-happy, but sad-weird-happy, its undescribeable( whats with the red dots) DID I JUST SPELL UNDESCRIBEABLE WRONGLY..! Dang, i've been playing so much game, that i even lost my ability to spell, gee, whats up with that..

I've just checked the Dictionary, and i am still not able to find that word - im serious - Dont you just hate it when u cant find the words you want in the dictionary, thus leading to this misleading thinking that the Dictionary sucks. Yes, that occurs to me most oftenly that i have lost count.

Argh. You start getting angry, and frustrated, mixture of anxiety, knowing that any moment now you will start ripping the pages of the Dictionary, ok ok, calm down now, no point getting all worked up right?

Then you enter "Dictionary.com" into the URL, and then you realize, what?, why the hell am i even on the website?!?, i cant even spell the word for goodness sake.

All hopes have evaporated into hell knows what, and then an idea flashes into your head. Ah HAH, i got it, i'll just give up trying to spell the word i want and come up with another!

Phew- a sigh of relief -, then came stress, brain cells working as hard as they can trying to fit another word into that sentence, but all effort seems to be useless because your vocabulary SUCKS.

Knowing this, you fall to your knees begging and whining"" WHY AM I SO STUPID "" and before you even notice, the word magically appears in your mind/head.

Phew, that was hard work, at least i tried..

You throw your pen down, and start to relax, AHhhhh, at least now i know its possible..

Then came this annoying buzzing sound that never seemed to go away. You try to fight it off, as though there was an irritating bug flying beside your ear.

" THUD!!! "

You woke up, and realized you're on the floor beside your bed, saliva dripping off your side of your cheeks, when you suddenly realized you're late for school.

Thinking back in time on what you did the day before, you recalled nothing.

Thinking hard; you....

Hmm, you seem to have a writers' block..

What?!?, i was writing a story? ,.. shit. I better go..

Dang, back to reality, Wesley's going, sobs :'-( .. at least he is not going forever, right wesley.. :)

I missed the memories spent. Why do time seems to be zipping by when we look back at the past?

Shit.. im feeling down at the moment yo, ... ...

Ps, wesley, if you're in Hong Kong reading this blog, be sure not to worry so much about accents.. try being your self, but be the cooler self. Okay? we'll keep in touch Wesley.. even if it means i have to fly to Hong Kong.. LOL

Okay, heard HK dim sum are very delicious.. lol nah, just want you to enjoy yourself back in HK..

Bye,
Brendon

22 november 2007

Ahh, the 22nd of november 2007 can go down in history of what's fun in my life.. lol

We, namely, nat, nat's bro, joan, wes, sandy, yipeng, royce, huijuan, lastly not forgetting me, lol

Wes came about this gathering on Thanksgiving day- i suppose - well, i would have regretted not going..

Anyway, wes and i arrived at nat's place, but before that we were out shoppin' for gifts to exchange.. Well, he and i bought this keychain which was freakin' ex, based that that keychain was small in size, smaller than my palm.. Anyway, its not a biggy deal, the special will remember me that way.. lol I wont go into details where we went to buy it, but its somewhere in Jurong East.

Next we headed for Nat's house.. we were the first to arrive, haha, and guess what greeted and welcomed us, Nat's RABBIT!! talk about cute, fur was so soft, as though i was touching cashmere (is that how u spell it??) and not forgetting her big, spacious house..

Soon, the guest were arrivin' one by one.. maybe not literally one at a time, but they came in groups..

I have to admit that i was really shy at first, seriously lor, but i sort of tried to ignore my shyness.

Anyway, since we all had gifts, we all decided to hide them in Nat's living room (Hall) but somehow, Nat's brother spilled where i hid my present.. argh, lol

Then we had dinner on her balcony, WOW, its big, never have i seen such a big and long, that stretch from from one side of the hall to the other side..! And the food was great, long time since i had home-cooked food. YUMM !

But i ate like the same old thing each time, only taking the potato. califlower and the egg grenched in tomato sauce and i tried one of those meat, not sure how to spell..

Yes,i forgot, just before dinner, we sat in a circle outside on her balcony, and we went round in a circle(clockwise) on a thank you message to someone u want to thank.

we exchanged meaningful messages of each other, although i am new in that group, i sort of feel welcomed and warm.

Then after dinner we talked about the nightmares we had, some were scary, but some were really interesting, made me want to dream of that particular dream.. lol

To elaborate further, we HJ introduced this story-telling like game where each person would say a paragraph that links to what the person said.

And on the first round, it finally came to my turn, well, i felt really damn it freakin' shy, and i was getting my brain juices to work and try to come up with something, and finally i DID, wooooooooot.

i think it made people laugh at what i said, it felt great.. it was my first time doing something that involves me speaking in public..

But that was getting old because all of us were like tired and hate to think.. so it was 1030, people had to leave and so did i..

Yawn, i reached home about 1120ish phew thank god my mom didnt scold me for coming after 11 . lol .

So, summarizing everthing, i had a great day..

Im now watchin' "" The Devil Wears Prada "" on cable so i want to leave.. lol

so maybe i will elaborate more some other day..

Bye, love
Bredon
(Ps, joan fell) i wanted to burst out laughing, but i know it was a harsh fall that she took.. so i had to be sensitive

i dont even know where to start!!..

YOUTUBE.. wesley called asking me what i felt about him on his video blog that he recently posted on YOUTUBE..

Things didnt turn out what i expected..

Wesley made a second video with me in it, well not my body but my voice..

Kind of like ' you hear him, but u dont see type ' and yes, i was FREAKIN' NERVOUS, my mind went blank, and i just could not start a conversation all of a sudden..

I mean, its weird having to heard 'world-wide' for the first time in my life, and it kind of made me FAKE. I was not the real me, meaning i was trying too hard to sound good on he's video.. LOL

Just didnt turn out the way i wanted..

Anyway, wesley will be posting the video on YOUTUBE, and i promise ( eagerly ) want to see how it turned out.. :P

Im shocked, even now, i cant express how i really felt at that moment..!

DAMN< wesley!! why.. WHY.. lol

No worries, ill get over it, unless the video receives bad comments.. My name was even said on video.. ARGH

Sigh, im gonna kill myself..

Lol, not that drastic though..

Anyway, ill see how wesley edited the video.. Hopefully it turned out great.. hahaha

for now,
BYE
Brendon

im back, with new and exciting stuff that involves me..( mostly )

Ever wondered how the Universe was created? ever wondered how each and everyone of us are related to one another?

Well, this questions could almost be answered, but a lot of researches has to be done..

The universe was somewhat created by what scientist call it " The Big Bang ". I believed it was so. To what seemed the impossible, it has been finally made( or somewhat proven ) that universe was indeed created by the Big Bang..

Cool.. The universe was only a 'bubble-like' shaped, ant that was knowed to be the 'universe'. As the universe expanded, gravity split up the four 'atoms' which includes the weak and stronge nuclear forces, electromagnetism, and lastly gravity.. It must have made the 'bubble-like' universe unstable or some sort, because it made the what know now-the Big Bang-. from the documentary telecast on The History Channel ( channel 8 on starhub cable ) It took billions of years to form today's universe which is 1500+ billion light years wide ( or maybe wider than that, im just recalling what i watched on TV ) .. Just amazing

One particular person in the show, really made everything as clear as seeing things under the microscope.. Anyway, he said, everyone on earth are biologically common, and are part of the Earth chemically, and are part the universe atomically.. WOW.. i wont go further into details partly 'cos i do not really understand how, and i have yet to..

Besides these, i had almost fell and banged my 'jimmy neutron-like head' against the bathroom wall, phew, thanks god and jesus.. that happened three times on the same day.. Imagine.. Slippin' and sliding on the wet bathroom tiled floor.. But i giggled at it.. I mean, dont we all love to see people in mishap, especailly at occasion where u just could not see anything worse the person could get and than it happens.. haha, i love it..!!

sigh, im having hard times at home, my mom cant stand the sight of me playing games or even using the computer..

IM waiting for my results on 17 december.. Oh yeah..

time to sign off before my mom starts nagging at me for using the com for too long..( its only have been 2 hours ) pfffffff..

bye
Brendon

long time no post..

hey ya'll, im back after a prolonged period of time.. LOL, well, i haven't really been busy, but i just couldn't be bothered..( shhh )
im just lazy, we'll just stick to that shall we..

our dog has really GROWN, well not really in size( a bit though ) , but in character wise.. he has been biting, nibbling, chewing, and the list goes on for stuff describing the mouth feature.. and that really bothers me- a lot -.. perhaps i have not had anyone biting or even nipping me, especially with SHARP teeth.. we'll i just try not getting my hand in chewing-distance with the dog's mouth (teeth)..

the dog even learnt how to growl.. WOW, thats a new one-indeed-.. lol, and i get scared and wild thoughts keeps flashing back, wondering if the dog would suddenly turn his head back, with eyes piercing into mine, body in the pouncing position ready for attack.. it really do scares me, i think u would too if you were the only one at home at night trying to play with the dog..

anyway, enough of scary and imaginative doggy stories, and time to get down to business.. well, keefe chan finally accpeted me friends request on friendster- sent him one like a week back or so-.. anyway, its not that i know him well enough to do that, but i thought it was fun to add him.. but after i clicked the sendy button, i came back to my senses, and realised " OMFG, what have i done!!! " mind the 'F', its freakin'.. =P i started feeling so guilty, as though i did something wrong- its nothing wrong -, but u know, whats sent on the internet, you cannot retrieve it... thats what i thought at the moment, but as days pass, i didnt get the accept email, and so i gave up wating, until today (8 november 2007), opened my hotmail inbox and there it was, the top of the list stating " keefe is now your friend on friendster " OMG, its nothing, but i feel kind of weird adding a teacher as a friends on friendster.. o.O

well i have one more friend, hahaha.

now for some silly info on what i did the past week, well NOTHING, NOTHING AT ALL.. ok not literally nothing, but it felt like nothing.. lol.. okay, i played games, i mean when did i ever had so much fun playing a game.. i mean, everyone should know that u get sick of something from time to time right? but in this situation, i dont ever ( maybe not ever ) feel sick of it.. and yup, my moms' nagging for playing the game all day.. hehehe.. i fell bad, but at least the game is free, meaning no money needed to pay to play the game.. unless its the internet- thats a different story - ..

well, i have mainly rubbish in this post, should go continue the gaming.. WOOOOOOH... ...

and not to forget, even after my O level maths exams were over, i am still doing maths.. ( wesley's O level maths book ) thanks to you wes, i wont spend the whole day playing.. :)

ok, im going, byyeee... ... ...

love,
Brendon.. PS, ( i keep typing my name as breodon most of the time ) lol , im so used to typing the 'o'

hahaha